Incomplete

i knew that it was going to be a long week. But man..........i never thought that it would be THIS long. Surely it's Friday by now?????? ~sighs~

In the past, a week without One was, at times, a relief. How this week has already shown that, in the past, i never truly submitted. i thought i did. i guess i did a reasonably good job at the charade. But, now that i truly have, i know how little i ever have before. i feel like i sent a part of me down south. i feel so very incomplete. Yet.......i revel in that incompleteness. my heart sings because i am so completely His. i live for His control, for that control is a caress to me. To be so loved is something i've always just dreamed of. To be so loved is something i thought that i would only crave, never feel. Now that i've felt it, i can't imagine ever being without it.

After today, there's just 3 more days and the weekend, then my Master will be back and His needy slave will be complete again.